The battle of the angel and the devil within you. The feelings within me that gets uncontrollable. It gets overwhelming and I get emotional breakdowns. Agony activated.
What am I supposed to do when I still have feelings for him? When I, myself, understand that I should be over him. Or, do I really not understand? I am thankful for what had happened, though. Knowing no reasons, I ponder. Maybe, we were meant to part ways, to be grow up more independently and become a better person for each other the next time we meet. To say this is because there were coincidences we had before we actually knew each other. First, him taking the bus to his grandmother's house that passes by my house and second, the school route we used to go to go, it intersected.
But maybe, we were meant to separate? What if it was only temporary? Was it my fault? Why did he act that way to me even though we have parted ways? Such a cruel joke. I know no reason and I probably deserved it anyway. Friends have asked me, "If he begged you to be back with you, will you?" This question had a huge impact on me. I pondered hard. Will I? Or will I not? Reasons to not to, will they hold me back? Or will my emotions reign?
Or, maybe, he belongs to 2014 and should remain there.
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